Well, I've done it. I'm moving. Here is the new link. The Weekend Gardener Hope I like it but think I will. I'm a little melancholy about living Blogger but it's time to move on. I will get it fixed up to where I like it and I think it will be better. Hopefully anyway.
See ya on the flip flop.
Well, shoot. This blog stuff is messing with me. Thank goodness I know enough about HTML and CSS to be completely dangerous to myself and my followers. They changed some stuff on here but it might be because I have changed computers. Not to crazy about Windows 8 but oh well. Going to have to have someone show me some stuff on here. It doesn't play right. I had Vista way back when and wasn't crazy about it but this is worse I think. Oh well, this too will pass and I will probably have to have another computer in a couple of years anyway. I go through them like Bic Razors. LOL.
Anyway, I told everyone last night that I was doing some soul searching and trying to figure out what my fit is in this life. Well, I have been following this blog from this gentleman and really, really enjoy his blogs. They are so uplifting and today's blog hit home base. "What is your fit??? Michael Patz is his name and if you really want to get some good readings, like his blog. They come in my emails. I guess mine do too if you follow them. I don't know.
Anyway, what he says is so right. Jump into community, that is where your gifts will rise to the surface. Talk to ones you can trust, your elders and your leaders in your lives and have them pray with you and for you. I have done that before on something that was placed on my heart and it has grown by leaps and bounds. It is a very successful endeavor and all we had to do was have faith and get it started. I have things I want to start and I just need to take the leap of faith.
I hope this helps you with finding your answers, if you are looking for answers. I believe it has me and I will keep believing that.
Good night everyone. Be classy and I love you all, even if you don't love me!!!
Well, this is my last day home for this week and my last long weekend until probably around May. We get two holidays in May, Truman's birthday on the 8th and then Memorial Weekend. I know, Truman's birthday is one of those bogus birthdays but hey....what can I say? Don't be a hater!
Storms are to be coming in and sounds like we are going to be having ice and snow along with sleet. Yuck, yuck, yuck. Hope it is short lived, am not wanting any of that stuff in my life at all! Josh has been working out of town since Thursday and is coming home today. I am wanting to stick around before I go back down to Springfield to see him but don't want to travel after dark. Hopefully he will be home early afternoon and all will be okay.
As I was driving down to Springfield today, I didn't turn the radio on until I was almost down here. Did a bunch of soul searching. All I can do is take it to my higher power, and He will allow it to happen if that is the direction I need to take. I let things bother me to much sometimes and things people say cut into me. I should be the better person and let it just roll off but with the verbal abuse, mental abuse and physical abuse of my past lives, it is hard. I am no different than anyone else though that has been through worse than I, so I need to buck up and not let the words hurt. I grew up though, with the guilt trips that a mother can instill on her child to make them obey and those have continued to stay with me. The shame of the dreaded guilt trips.
Don't get me wrong though. My mom was a good mom, I should have been disciplined more than I actually was. Seriously, I got away with murder. In my entire childhood I only got two spankings and they probably weren't really spankings. One, I don't even remember what I did but I ran away from her and climbed a tree. Well, I had to come down out of that tree and the spanking pursued. The other time I was tormenting my little niece Renada. She was 9 years younger than I and was a pain in my backside when we were growing up. She adored me and why not??? I was cool and she wanted to be like me. Well, I was doing something mean, I am sure, and my mom swatted me with the yard stick to make me stop. She probably should have used the belt but my mom wasn't a physical abuser. I am sure the guilt trip after Renada left was far worse than the swatting. LOL.
Speaking of Renada, I am so glad we did grow up together because we are close now. When I came back to Mo and started hanging around the family again there were a lot of things I noticed that Renada does that is the same as me. One of them is crazy but she likes mustard on her sandwiches. I always liked mustard, never mayo or salad dressing. Not even ketchup that well, still am like that. She loves the smell of patchouli, probably from all the incense I use to burn in my room. One time I was unpacking some stuff that mom had given me and I lived with the last pond scum I lived with. Anyway, I was unpacking my stuff and pulled out the incense burner. He goes, "You aren't going to let Josh see that, are you?" I'm like what? It's an incense burner. I think he thought it was a pipe to smoke dope out of or something. Idiot.
Well, if nothing else this has made me feel better after writing in it. I go to a retirement meeting tomorrow to hear what I need to do. I've had two other's scheduled but have missed them, I don't plan to miss this one. Sounds like we are going to get a pretty bad ice storm in town tomorrow night. Sounds like Harrisonville area may get some too but mainly snow. We'll see, it all may miss us all. I will talk to you guys tomorrow and take care. Love you all.
Checking out some paint swatches and cabinet hardware for the kitchen. In the next week or two I want to repaint the kitchen and get it all looking good. Then went over to the "Trade Fair" which is a flea market in Harrisonville. Saw some pretty cool stuff but didn't buy anything. It was a pretty good afternoon.
A direct quote from Facebook from a preacher. "If you are an American and believe that abortion is right and that homosexuality is moral, you have that right. But if you do, please don't profess to be a Christian or claim to believe the Bible. Jesus clearly taught that any sexual activity except that which occurs between a heterosexual married couple is sin and unacceptable. The rest of the Bible in both the Old and the New Testaments echo and affirm that fact. Scripture is also clear that life and personhood begin at conception and that the destruction of that innocent life is likewise sin and unacceptable. Now again if you choose not to believe those truths you have that right. But please don't blaspheme The Lord Jesus Christ by claiming to be His follower, and don't insult the holiness of God's Word by quoting it' qualifying it, or questioning it. And please don't tell people you are a Christian or that you read or study, because you're just bad advertisement."
Just because we don't all think alike and I don't have the same beliefs as some doesn't mean I'm not a Christian and should be shamed into thinking that I blaspheme Jesus by "claiming" to be His follower and insulting God's Word by quoting it. Also, don't tell me not to proclaim to people that I am a Christian or that I read or study the Word. Don't tell me that I am bad advertisement---just because I don't see eye to eye with your beliefs. Just between you and me, I can touch people with God's Word that you would never even be accepted into their house and you do not know what my relationship is with God. God loves me unconditionally and puts me in instances that I can bring people into His house and closer to Him. I speak in larger magnitudes just by actions and without words. All men sin and no one sin is greater than any other except for the sin of denying God....let he who is without sin cast the first stone.....and what ever I choose to call myself is between me and my God.
I get so mad at the holier than thou's out there. So heavenly good that they are no earthly account!!! God loves everyone and he had Jesus come and teach us, Love one another as we would have them love us. And to love God and put only Him as our worship. Grrr. I need to move on and be reminded that I am the better person here.
I love everybody and remember...Only we can make the difference needed. I love this next post I posted earlier today...
Many of you are unaware, but when I blog during the weekend I usually just pick up my computer and write whatever is on my mind at the time. Sometimes I do that and sometimes I just sit in my chair during a very quiet time and write my thoughts. Well, this morning we are watching my favorite show, "Sunday Morning". It comes on at 8am on CBS but they are doing a story on the Sandy Hook murders and they also did a story on Oscar Pistorius murder. It makes me sad and wonder, what has happened to our world? What has happened to empathy? Some blame guns, some blame drugs (lack of or to much) some blame mental health and then some blame the parents. I don't know who is to blame and I don't even know if we need to point blame on anyone or anything. I believe it has to do with mental health but is it?
Took a nap today and am feeling better, not that I felt bad but I was in a funk. Still am a little. I told Terry I didn't understand why and he said because the weekend is time to unwind. After saying that I thought a little on what that meant and he is right. I know the rest of you can relate also. Even if you don't do manual work, mental and physical work can be as grueling. I was always told before that I didn't work hard and there was no reason why I should be tired, that I was lazy. Well, it takes a lot of energy to put in your work hours. Especially if you deal with the public, deal with policies and procedures and deal with emotions from clients and even co-workers. Man, I'm tired just thinking about it.
You know modern technology is wonderful but Skype!!! That is the neatest thing. We talked to Jeremy, Barbel and Emma today. Let me tell you, that picture did not do her justice!!! Those cheeks are fuller and rounder not being on her back and that poor baby has no neck! She is absolutely adorable. Love her to death, cannot wait to see her this year again. She is going to be so beautiful because she already is.
Well, the day has ended pretty good. Terry and I went for a walk around the neighborhood and then when we got home took Lamar on a walk in the field behind the house. We need to get him a harness that fits him. He has outgrown the one we had for him because he is a porker! Plus because he was a puppy when we got it for him and he's not a puppy any more. His ole tongue was hanging out when we got home though. Did him some running which is good for him. Anyway, the walk did me good, help with my mood in the funk. Not there anymore. I really need to quit being lazy and do more outside.
Talked to a friend today that I hadn't talked to for a long time. Long time, I mean a month or so. It was so good talking to her and she's been sick, which I didn't realize. She is having a surprise birthday party for her mama, 90 years old. Is that not awesome. Terry and I will be going without a doubt. Ruby is a special, special lady. She told me if she was 30 years younger she'd give me a run for my money over Terry. LOL. She's awesome. One of my favorite Ruby stories was when she had breast cancer. I'm thinking she was in her late 70's maybe and she had the mastectomy. I went over to see her after she got out of the hospital and asked how she was doing? She said fine and then said, "You know what them Grandchildren of mine are calling me?" I told her pray tell, I'd have no idea. She said, "One booby Ruby!" Laughing as she was telling me that. Gotta love that Ruby, she is awesome.
I have two more days home. Tomorrow is like President's Day or something and since Monday is my day off normally, I have Tuesday off. I'm glad. Getting off of here and will talk to you guys tomorrow. Bye.
Well, well, well. Here I am once again, rested and not as tired as I was yesterday. Man, that day wore me out!!! I came home to a great surprise. As you guys know, Valentine's Day was Thursday and I was in Springfield so we didn't get to celebrate. I decided to surprise him though this year and bought a card, placing 4 Scratch off tickets inside and when I left Wednesday morning placed it on the bathroom sink for when he woke up. He told me Wednesday night that he was going to wait until I got home before he scratched them. Plus my present would be waiting for me when I got home. As I said, I got home late last night and we were unloading the car, placing my luggage in the bedroom. I was carrying in my hang up clothes and a bag and there on the bed was my present....
Anyone that knows me knows the weakness I have for stuffed animals. The inner child in me comes out. As long as I am alive I will always give a child a stuffed animal for a present. This guy is going to Springfield with me. Trying to figure out a fitting name for him, just haven't yet. I'll let you guys know the big decision when it comes. :o)
Oh, and Terry won $15 on the Scratch off tickets. He then bought another ticket this morning, not from the one's I gave him and won $20. This guy is one of the luckiest people I've ever known.
I had so many people cry to me yesterday. Heartfelt tears. A close friend that is dealing with a loss, a father that is dealing with a loss of a son into the world of drugs and homosexuality. It wasn't a dad that was mad at his son, it was a dad that feels he is losing the love of his son. Drugs are bad, no matter what or how you look at them. 19 year old on Ecstasy, Meth and who knows what else. I know this is a fact because I know the crowd his son is hanging with. Then another friend cried telling me some things that is heavy on their hearts. Not sure why I was chosen as the person to hear these stories but whatever the reason is, I hope it was well played by me. I pray to God that I have made a difference.
A close friend of mine and I were talking last night, she has been working in Public Health longer than I. She gets depressed and discouraged just like the rest of us and she said that whatever our purpose is in life, if we even make a difference in one life it is what we are here for. That wasn't the exact words she said but close or at least it was within the ballpark.
Well, guess what. This is it. Getting off, "Stay Classy" people.
Got home late tonight, am tired but got a lot accomplished today so all is good. Lots has happened tonight that sends me running in prayer though. Pray people like you've never prayed before. I have come across a lot of people the last two days that can definitely use your prayers, chants, meditation, whatever you do to your higher power. To much sadness has been brought to my attention. Wish I had the answer but I don't.
Will write more tomorrow. I'm tired. Good night all.
